journey of houngzai

Final exam

2011-05-06T11:13:00.000-07:00

I'm having my final now until next Tuesday. Well, it's the first time I'm having my final here in KL. At first I thought it will be hard and the standard might be higher a bit compared to Penang. However, it's not what I expected. it's easier than what i expected...lol...and I did quite well for the two papers and now left 2 more to go.

The worst part of it is that, i will be having 2 papers in one day. arghhhhh....stress leh...how am i suppose to read. i usually do last minute work..XD....well......this time i think i have to start study and not doing last minute revision anymore. well...wish me luck..

i'm going to post some photo shoot of mine last mine...erm...it's kind of just shooting la......lol... if u feel that your eye is suffering, then kindly move your mouse to the close button and click it or you can close it with alt+ F4...lol

Port Dickson

2011-04-25T03:09:00.000-07:00

When you are too boring

you will do anything and go anywhere to get rid of boredom

so, me and friends went to Port Dickson

to kill boredom and also to shoot some scenery.

Went there at around 3pm

went to the first beach and the sun was so hot

Ok what we did was shoot shoot and shoot for nice picture

all the picture was taken by using my E72 and no edit

Footprint

crab hole

bridal shoot by the beach

so sweet

After that, we went to another beach.

Have to be hurry because we are rushing

as that time is almost sunset...

we wanted to take photo for sunset

the sweet couple of the day

Looks like the egg in moon cake..XD

loving the sand in Port Dickson

so soft and so nice to walk

sunset was so beautiful

shall shoot for sunrise next time..hehe

till then

see ya

GYM

2011-03-27T06:06:00.000-07:00

When you are alone at gym, what will you do?

lol

i just snap picture all around me

that was the second time i start my gym don't know after how long i stop

whole body muscle pain like hell

but i like the felling

cause i know the muscle is broken

and

I'm GAINING more MUSCLE

look MORE MUSCULAR!!

haha

I looked fit during the time i went to gym

after stop for few months

the muscle is like balloon without wind..XD

I always feel awkward to 自拍

so i try when no one around me..

lol

well...gona get use to it

since girl can do that, why not guy?

gona exercise more and keep my self fit

adios

Choice

2011-03-26T13:10:00.000-07:00

This the video we did for our abnormal psychology course work,

which I would like to share it long time ago.

It's already a year we did this video...lol

well...the tittle is "CHOICE"

It indicated that we as human have choices to make in our life.

Every decision we made is our choice.

Whether to be good or bad, it's our choice.

Watch it..and try to understand it....if you cant..lol..then ask me bout it...

Cheras Pasar Malam

2011-03-18T12:10:00.000-07:00

Went to Cheras pasar malam last Friday...

was not interested in going cause it's raining,

but end up was force to go cause friends came to my house and invite me...XD

well...I'm not the one who driving and it's lucky cause...

so jam..

jam on the road for half and hour

and I'm dead hungry

but anyway

reach there safely.

It's still raining

quite a heavy rain actually

everyone was walking with umbrella

I was like.."siao one...rain also come"

lol

I'm also one of the "siao one"

Most of the shop is open

even the rain is heavy

You can see...people will do anything for money...haiz

Ok..my first stop

"CHAO TAO FU"

It's damn smelly

you can smell it like miles away..lol

but...it's delicious and you can taste the smelly taste when you eat it

so crunchy on the outer layer...*nom nom nom*

Ok..this is my second meal...

"Char Koay Teow"

Well..this can consider one of the best among all those koay teow in KL

as a Penangite...I'm very particular bout the taste of food...

and...I'm choosy...XD

Went to eat LOK LOK for the next round...

I only ate 2 cucuk which cost me RM5.50

Bacon and cheese sausage..lol..

The RM3 bacon..XD

The "tam jiak" one

OK..this post is making me hungry...

bye bye...

off to dinner...

2011-03-01T10:23:00.000-08:00

Random pictures that I when I'm free

night at genting

first home cook meal in KL

delay valentine's dinner

so bright yet so far..that's the moon

sunset on highway

Valentine's day

2011-02-17T06:42:00.000-08:00

When every couple are celebrating their Valentine's day with their loves one, I went to have dinner with my friends at Shabu Shabu. Well...went there at around 8 something and when we reach there, we need to wait for another 25 mins as it's already full...

The food was just OK just that the idea of the spinning thing makes me impress...lol...anyway...that's my Valentine's day and i only get few pictures for that day.

Till then... adiós

from hot to cool

2011-02-13T02:44:00.001-08:00

It was so hot in the afternoon.....and now.....

the darkness is approaching.....and it's raining now...wheee~~

have a great day :-)

some random stuff

2011-02-11T04:41:00.000-08:00

KL

2011-02-10T04:05:00.000-08:00

I'm back in KL again and will not be back home for another 3 weeks.

Before I came here, I thought it was suppose to be fun in here.

In contrast, it's not fun at all.

Basically it's because i'm lack of entertainment.

Besides surfing the net and watching movies and drama through the internet, I got nothing to do.

I need entertainment and new friends.

There are no doubt that I learn how to take care of myself and do my own stuff

but human need entertainment and excitement

I should be able to find it here but how come I can't feel it.

Until the day I find something fun to do here, I'll always think about going home.

So, I wish that I could figure it out as soon as possible.

Time

2011-01-25T03:41:00.000-08:00

It's already 3 years I create this blog and I've abandon it for about 1 year

Without noticing it

Time pass by just like that

Many thing change and no longer stay the same

People change, our environment change

and what's more

even our state government also change..lol

but the most important thing

is that our loves one still with us

our friends, our family members and everyone around us

they are still here

although there are a few no longer live in this world

but they still live in our heart

There was once I read my old post in this blog

I realize that all of the post represent my changes from time to time

the picture shows the memories

I'm sure all of us will smile when we think of our past

no matter it's about sweet or sad moment

It's part of us, it build up who we are today

I was having yam cha session with friends last Saturday

suddenly we talk about how we met each other

and stuff we said and did

i realize that

it's already few years back

Now

all of us have our own business to care about

however

what makes me feel great about it

is that the sweet moment that we all been through

how naive I am that time

when I think of it, it makes me happy and it makes me laugh

I regret cause I did not write down the memory I have in this blog

it leaves a blank page on my memory

you will never know what will happen tomorrow

and when you realize about what is happening

it's already too late

time will never wait for you

question

2010-12-25T05:12:00.001-08:00

Should I get back to here to start blogging again?

lol..i wonder who will see this post as I already abandon my blog for 2 years d...XD

2009-10-03T04:40:00.000-07:00

茫茫人海中

让我遇到特别的你

千万人之中

唯一你和其他不像

独特的你

散发出一种光芒

轻轻的香味

慢慢吸引了我

一股冲动

涌上心头

按奈不住的感觉

让我鼓起勇气对你表白

意想不到的结果

就坚持到现在

仍然对你一成不变

而那感觉

也还在像火焰般

继续燃烧着

天空中有乌云的时候

但自然就是那么美妙

雨后总会出现一道彩虹

而那彩虹总是让单调的蓝天

更添一份色彩

就如我你争执之后

就会相安无事般

继续我们的故事

时隔两年，

我们依旧相爱着

对你的那份感情

依旧燃烧着

一生一世

是我对你的诺言

你照亮了我的世界

你是我的

爱人

雨后的天空

2009-09-06T09:52:00.000-07:00

这几天下了大雨

终于放晴了

雨后的天空

就如我和你吵架后一样

变得蓝蓝的

亮亮的

就如平常一般

快乐的时光

雨后的彩虹

为天空添上一份色彩

就如我们忘了一切

重新来过

创造美好的未来

雨后的天空

总是充满了希望

也让我体会到

有希望的感觉

也让我

对你充满了

无限的希望

更对我们

抱着了巨大的希望

雨天

2009-08-22T10:00:00.000-07:00

下雨了

冷冷的

昏暗的天空

使世界变得悲伤起来

想念的感觉

在这下雨的天气

不听使唤地

向我红润的心

用力的从来

雨天里

好想紧紧拥抱你

感觉你身体的温暖

好让我的世界

变得暖和

添一添活力

雨天里

好想和你

在雨伞下

一起吃冰淇淋

一起从中

寻找刺激

雨天

好舒服啊

凉凉的

冷冷的

睏睏的

。。。。。。。。。。。

2009-08-17T05:03:00.000-07:00

4 more HOURS to GO!!!!!!

2009-08-06T09:03:00.000-07:00

看到他脚上的疤痕

真让我心疼得不得了

那些昆虫

要在他脚上

同在我心上

看到你如此的伤心

我真希望

这些是发生在我身上

那又该多好

你就不必

为了这些事

而感到伤心

如有机会

我真希望

我能代替你

承受所有的悲哀

只让你

享受世界上的快乐

为了你

牺牲也在所不惜

2009-07-28T00:06:00.000-07:00

终于

考试终于完了

现在的心情

就只想

和我的宝贝di~

好好享受

两人世界

到海边听海

看看日落

四处兜兜

偶尔看看电影

享受一下

烛光晚餐

这是多么美妙的事啊~~

di~~

你想吗？？

2009-07-24T09:55:00.000-07:00

漫长的一个礼拜

让我更肯定

你在我的世界里

扮演了

很重要的角色

你的出现

让我找到了自己

让我有了目的

更让我了解

在爱情过界里

自私是无法生存的

谢谢你

谢谢你让我知道

什么叫做爱~

失望后的期望

2009-07-13T08:58:00.000-07:00

今天的失望

让我盼望

有一天

我的希望会实现

我不怪你

忘了它吧~~

在努力吧！！

你知道我在讲什么

爱你

期待

2009-07-06T09:24:00.000-07:00

期待每天

将要见到你的时刻

期待每次

将要和你出去的时光

期待看见

你那美丽的笑容

期待感觉

你手心的温暖

更期待

体会你那我新的问候

也期待

每次

拥抱你时

小鹿乱撞的感觉

di~~

在这下雨的夜里

好想拥抱你

感觉你身体的温暖哦~~

考试

2009-07-01T06:45:00.000-07:00

考试的夜里
特别的寂寞
尤其在没有你的空间
显得自己如此孤单
就因需时间温习
无时间陪你

在寂静的夜里
看着课本
印映出你的脸孔
无法集中
更无法牢记

如此美丽的时刻
没有你的存在
毫不习惯哦!!

祝你考试顺利
记得
在想你哦

2009-07-01T06:36:00.000-07:00

My life is nothing but an empty bottle…
filling it with all my feeling and emotion …
of love, sorrow, and happiness …
of fear, anger and desire…
an empty bottle in the middle of the sand …
and time, like the wind blows by…
fades everything away…
washes everything away…
taking almost everything…
but for one single feeling of love…
a love which will never be blown away…
a love which will never fade with time

2009-06-26T10:21:00.000-07:00

不要忘了我的存在

不要忘了联络我

星期一再见！！

没有你的一天

2009-06-26T09:02:00.000-07:00

没有你的一天

就如漫无目的的生活着

就像孤魂野鬼

漫游在街上

不敢想像

如果一天

失去了你

我的日子将会怎样

时时刻刻都想着你

虽然你就在附近

可你的不存在

带给我不安

在将要离开你的夜晚

在我心里

真的好想念你

我可以见你吗？

学会

2009-06-22T10:18:00.000-07:00

爱情让人学会很多东西

多亏有你

我学会了一切

一切我从来所不知的东西

你让我学会了爱

学会了痛

学了幸福

学会了流泪

学会了忍耐

学会了珍惜

学会了牺牲

学会了付出

你让我知道美丽

知道爱情

知道感觉

知道开心

知道了你

这一切

都是因为你

才有今天的我

我。。你！

自信心

2009-06-21T00:21:00.000-07:00

其实在两个星期前

我发觉我对我自己已失去原有的自信心

这东西很奇妙地

说走就走

直到现在

我更加确定

我真的对我自己起了怀疑

这自信心

多数时起与感情的问题

我一直在问我自己

我能维持这两年的感情吗？

不是我对他失去了感觉

而是对我自己失去了对自己的信任

就觉得自己是个失败者

往往做事情都难以成功

可能太过自信

而使自己跌倒特别快

可能是付出太多

而让他觉得这些虽时都会在

可我自愿

受伤也无所谓

因为我甘愿

我真的没有了信心

真的。。。。。

不知怎么找回

信心不在

真的好恐怖

好害怕。。。。。。。

珍惜

2009-06-20T10:17:00.000-07:00

爱情里

珍惜是关键

懂得珍惜

爱情路跑得更远

我学会珍惜

你的一切我会牢记

不希望后悔莫及时

已来不及

我希望你也懂得珍惜二字

因为机会不会常出现

一旦失去

就已无法回头再见

我珍惜你

也希望你珍惜我

付出的一切是值得的

我爱你

雾

2009-06-18T10:20:00.000-07:00

天空中布满了浓浓的雾

就如我心中填满了我对你的爱

雾像空气般

停留再不会走动的时光中

就如我永远陪在你身边

永不离去的景象

在漫长的道路上

雾慢慢地把道路给掩盖了起来

就如我埋没在你的爱情世界里

永远停留在里头

再也不会出来

雾和空气融合在一起

我将他们吸进肺里

就像我将你永远放在心里

永远的守护你

再也不会离开你

在这充满雾的夜里

我特别特别的想念你

真希望此时此刻

你会在我身边

四季

2009-06-16T10:31:00.000-07:00

春天的爱情是暖暖的

夏天的爱情是热恋的

秋天的爱情是浪漫的

冬天的爱情是伤感的

每段爱情总会经过四季

我们也一样

可我相信

我对你的感觉

永远都会像

春天般的温暖

夏天般的热情

秋天般的浪漫

可不会像冬天般的悲伤

夏天是我们的季节

梦

2009-06-15T06:51:00.000-07:00

梦就像光阴般飞快的逝去

等到要想记得是就已经太晚了

和你的时间就像梦一样

就如快乐的时光特别快

一去不回头

梦是美妙的

往往想呆在梦里久一些

可时间就是梦的阻碍者

在最陶醉的时候

突然杀了出来

和你的时就如梦般那么美妙

无时无刻都享看着你的脸颊

无时无刻都不想离开你的视线

可时间就使梦的阻碍者

在陶醉你的世界里时

突然把我拖走

不让我陪伴你左右

多希望和你的时侯时间会停留

也希望我和你的未来不是梦

依赖

2009-06-13T09:19:00.000-07:00

你可依赖我一切

心甘情愿不顾一切

你的开心是我的骄傲

你的笑容带给我欢笑

为你服务我愿意

只愿常伴你左右

爱你一辈子

当我伤心的时候

只要想起你的笑容

我就会开心起来了

宝藏

2009-06-12T09:27:00.000-07:00

你对我来说就是难寻找的宝藏

如此珍贵的宝藏

只能拿来爱惜与保护

免得它受到任何伤害

你是我的宝藏

永远都受到我的爱惜

不会让你受到任何伤害

手

2009-06-11T11:02:00.001-07:00

她的手是值得我去握一辈子的！！！

2009-06-08T08:45:00.000-07:00

难道就没有办法吗？？

感情交叉点

2009-06-08T08:05:00.000-07:00

不知什么时候，开始发现自己的感情好像出现了问题

不敢去问，也不敢去面对

只好一个人在电脑前猜测

也慢慢地觉得这样也不是解决的方式

只好硬着头皮，装着有胆量

决定开口去问

一句“你还喜欢我吗？”

换来漫长等待的回答

这时我发现了我的犹豫是对的

不知如何处理也不知如何对待

此时此刻的我

开始哭了

我从来没有对你失去感觉！

new year resolution....

2009-01-17T06:15:00.001-08:00

i know...new year already over...but...CNY is coming soon...so this resolution is not late...haha...i gave myself sometime to think about it ma...

so..here is my resolutions for the GOLDEN OX year

1. i hope i wont always worry about money

2. i want to know more people

3. i hope everyone will always be healthy

4. i hope i wont get a C for my exam..at least i mz have a B

5. i wana go REDANG

6. i wana have a road trip

7. i hope i can have more student

8. i hope i can force the coordinator for my course leave

9. i will update my blog more often

10. lastly..... i hope ADP will have more activity so that we all can hang out together more often...i mean for all intake...

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR

tagged by may kwoon and kit mun....swt

2009-01-09T23:05:00.000-08:00

Directions : Once you've been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things,habits or goals about you. At the end, choose ten people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them. Don't forget to leave a comment (''You're tagged!'') and to read your blog, you can't tag the person who tagged you.

1. i wana go travel

2. i like to sleep

3. i wish i can earn more money

4. i want to get rid of boredom

5. i wana become a successful psychologist...the best in the world...XD

6. i wana learn lots of thing...such as language design and etc

7. i just woke up only...=.=

8. open house on the 3rd day of CNY....who wana come??

9. i hope i can study oversea..

10. i wana know more people

11. i wana have more new clothes and pants

12. i wana go shopping

13. i will help my parent to clean the house 2ml....hopefully...hehe

14. i will be going to futsal later

15. i will update my blog more often

16. lastly, i wana tag those who tag me before....NGEK NGEK NGEK....

10 lucky pepole that i tag:

1. yee chern

2.may kwoon

3.kit mun

4. vernn

5.shu sui

6. yen lynn

7.ye-huey

8.fiona

9.yang chen

10. yong pin

a late one

2009-01-02T21:57:00.000-08:00

HAPPY 2009

LOL

a late wish

quite a late one

zzzzzzzzzz

2008-12-27T22:33:00.000-08:00

Am I going to end 2008 in a boring way...

haiz...dun have any plan yet...

anyone have any celebration????

T_T

Merry Christmas

2008-12-25T00:33:00.000-08:00

HO HO HO HO....

SANTA CLAUS is coming

wishing everybody

MERRY CHRISTMAS

HAPPY NEW YEAR

WaNdeRinG~~~~

2008-12-22T08:18:00.000-08:00

Planning to switch to DISTED to continue my DEGREE

SEGI.....

haiz....

a lil bit sucks........

hmmmmm

still wandering......

SEGI's Prom Night!!

2008-12-15T21:48:00.000-08:00

LOL...lazy to type and describe that much d...

just post the photot can d

TOO LAZY!!!!!

coming soon~~~

2008-11-12T09:20:00.000-08:00

coming soon to you

SEGI PROM

signing off

............................................

2008-11-06T04:44:00.000-08:00

TOMORROW

IS PROM NIGHT DDDDDDDD

i'm sure vern will feel this way...XD

well....normal for me nia...

jz simply express my self

since this is the 1st time for me to go to prom...hehe

adiosssssss

AUGUST~~~~~FINAL

2008-10-26T22:48:00.000-07:00

well..this is the official day for me turn to 20 year oldso sad...T_T

BUT

the best part is....i had a great time with my friend

we went to MIZI BISTRO to have our dinner

at 1st...my my gf told me that there are only few of the

m can make it

and it is common for me

as most of my friend are in other state

so...me and my gf reach there at 7 sumthing...

we waited for about 45 minutes

and..suddenly

i saw a bunch of ppl coming in

and

all of them are my friend

they are back..

wow...i really cant imagine....

almost 20 of them come...

lol..really lots of ppl

well....i dun think word will describe my feelings

so i'll let the picture do the talking

this are the photo of my friend who were coming on that day

friend from IPG

friend from CHUNG LING

me talking around

my birthday cake^^

well....as we noe...we all have the same tradition of birthday

i can't run away from it...

haiz...

1st step

2nd step

the result

this is the video of how i kena the cake....

..hehe

after clean all the cake on my face

i went to the toilet in NEW WORLD to wash my hair

guess wat

i use the hand dryer to blow my hair on the spot

lol....and..the users of the toilet kept looking at me....

lol...such a good experience

THANK YOU GUYS

thx for the surprise

this is my best birthday celebration

signing off

bye bye^^

AUGUST~~~~ PART 2

2008-10-12T21:35:00.000-07:00

it's already October yet i stil havent finish posting my birthday event during August...what a shame...=.=....well....refer to the previous post...u will noe what i'm actually talking about now....

on the day before my birthday....i went to celebrate with my family.....at

CHILISSSSS~~~~~

here are the pic of the food there....

that's my sis...do we look alike???hmmm

my family...^^

that day was the final of olympic in badminton

LEE CHONG WEI vs LIN DAN

and...haiz....

LEE CHONG WEI lost...

so SADDDD

i'm watching the match...XD

the soon to be 20 year old me

The last part of AUGUST will be up soon....

still editing...hehe..

ADIOS

August~~~PART 1

2008-09-18T09:09:00.000-07:00

yaya...i know i know...now is September already...and i'm posting thing which related to August..but..i have to....because.....IT'S MY BIRTHDAY MONTH!!!!

well...my birthday was on the 18/8/08
so many 'FAT FAT FAT" right...hehe

this year was a different birthday for me..
for the FIRST time
i celebrate it for THREE DAYSSSSSS.....
WOW...I LIKE IT!!!!!!!

ok...for the 1st day...err...
it was me n her...she bring me to Dossert hotel
to enjoy the wonderful japanese buffet....
ok...here are the photossssssss....

that's her...^^

the salmon

the cake the hotel gave to me..XD

=.=''

among all of the foods there..

the dessert was the one i like the most....

i ate a lot u know...

i'm full not because of the main course

but THE DESSERT!!!!!

here is it.....my FAVOURITE

(^.^)V

part 2 coming soon

coming soon....

2008-09-09T10:11:00.000-07:00

DANG DANG DANG DANG~~~~

COMING TO YOU

SOON

miracle....XD

2008-09-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

today....9th september 2008

10.30pm

For the FIRST TIME

I DO REVISION AT HOME

and

there are no exam tomolo....

FOR THE 1st TIME

I STUDY WHEN THERE ARE NO EXAM

OMG

2ml we will see pig climb up to the tree d....XDXD

la la la~~~

2008-08-31T12:17:00.000-07:00

I'm LAZY to blog

but stil i wana write sumthing here

which is

I'm LAZY to BLOGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

Random mood

2008-07-06T07:31:00.000-07:00

I am sooooooooooooooooo~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

LAZY

NEW SEM.....OLD DAYS

2008-07-01T09:59:00.000-07:00

It's 3rd semester for me in SEGI COLLEGE

well...many thing happens....which i mean...SEGI's life

erm...i stil remember...

during the 1st sem...i don't talk at all...

as if like i can't talk at all....XD

welll.......now....i admit that

i'm very talkative in the class

and keep on make lots of noice...hehe...sorry for that

err...we form a club which name FAYETTE club

it is for our ADP students

ADP stand for American Degree Program

well...i'm the vice president of the club...ahem ahem...^^

but..i usually dun do anything...XD

and we had organised quite a lot of activity..

but not those big one...all small small one

and there will b more to go..

Here are some pics for the activity that we had organised...

this is the lecturer whot teahced us english

n he no longer teach us already

he is MR ISMAEL

a palestine with malaysian

edward wif his yam chin face palying chess wif ismael

they call me "ji mui"..swtlll

below is the pic during bowling..part of our activities

me...=.=''

some random pic

random

group pic

another bowling and we get to visit the process of the arrangement of bownling pin

with the ppl incharge

we also visit to the autistic home

do some charity thing ma....hehe

jz got one of it

me with VK posting only

Jemputree

2008-07-01T09:38:00.000-07:00

Well...a little bit of update so that for those who view my blog will continue viewing...hehehe...errr....i lazy to type la...let the photo do the talking...

Went to Jemputree with different gang of ppl

but..of course...SHE will always be there wherever i go....hehehe

1st of all...let me introduce to you

THE DISTED GANG

Secondly, let me introduce to you all

THE SEGIAN GANG

Well, i think thats it...hehe....

basically this is wat we do there

CAM WHORE!!!!!!

Until here

good night

have a nice sleep

ADIOS AMIGO

FINALLY....unfortunately..... :-(

2008-05-22T21:14:00.000-07:00

FINALLY............I had finished my EXAM

WOOWWWWWW...............!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can.................

wheee~~~~~~~~~~~

It is a big joy for me....muahahahahahahhahaha

UNFORTUNATELY................i'm SICK!!!!!!!!!!!!

i get FLU....haiz....what a pityful guy.....

I have to take lots of medicine....which I do not like

Since i do not like it....so what for i take it

lol...in the end....i din take any medicine......

just let it cure by it self....

HOPE I GET WELL SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

shock...WTF!!

2008-05-13T07:42:00.000-07:00

Yesterday...i get to knew that my use to be best friend had broke up with her 2 years BF

i'm really sad to knew about it

i was shock when i knew about it

and than,it makes my day become miserable

i start thinking why, how come, what happen and many more

althought it is non of my business

but i duno y, i feel that way.....it keeps making me think n think n think

may be because she use to be my best friend

and she become jz a normal friend for me...strange huh...lol

well...what makes me keep thinking is that

they broke up, but they still be friend...they still love each other and i'm sure about it

ok..the reason they broke up was the guy need to furher his study in KL

although distance is not a problem,the girl insist of broke up

because she think that the feeling is important

as we know...we will trust each other,but somehow we will feel uncomfortable

so..they just broke up like dat...haiz....

however,the good news is that they did not end it badly

they still hang out as a friend

as i know,the guy still will hold her hand

but the girl jz reject it

this is wat kept making me thinking...

u can imagine that how tough and the feeling

when u cant hold ur love one hand when u both still loving each other

it is like, u find water in a dessert but u cant drink it

it is very hard and u will feel a heart pain

it jz makes me feel uncomfortable

and why they have to end up like this

both also my friend

i'm really feel sad for them

world is like that

anything also can happen

hope they will be together again

and i really hope that i will c them back together again

best wishes for them

and hope all couple in this world

will appreciate each other while u both still can

do not wait until u lose ur partner only u regret

and last but not least

wish ym n yc.....stay tough....take care...do remember the good time with each other

and believe that u both will be together again......

that's wat i hope and wat i wish to see....

it's been a long time.....XD

2008-04-17T18:31:00.000-07:00

halo halo....it's been a long time i din update my blog....erm...i take a look at my last post...wow...it was las year....errr.....erm...about 8 months i din even touch my blog at all...LOLZ.....welll....dis 8 months...many things happen.....

well well....hmm....for your information...i'm already studying in SEGI COLLEGE....erm...taking psychology course....althought i hav 2 start all over again...it takes me 4 years to get my degree...but...nvm...as long as i get to study....the most important thing is dat i cant fail any subject...as if i fail it...den i will hav to pay for abouit 1K to resit that subject...WTF....it is really expensive......furthermore.....if i fail 1 subject...my dad will not continue sponsor me to study....haiz....pressure lo...but...no matter how..i hav to do it.....FOR MY FUTURE!!!!!!!!

OK.....today is 18/4/2008, this is a very very big day....because.....IT'S MY 1st ANNIVERSARY WIF MY GF........wow...time past really fas....it's been a year already....think back of a year ago...hmm....i was like...very different from now....cacat mia attitude...cacat mia style...cacat mia spectacle....everything also cacat la....hmm....now...ahem ahem....different d....haha...well....HAPPY ANNIVERSARY ya.....hehe.....later bring u go eat holiao...hehe.....

erm...let me think...oh ya....my dad bought a new car for me d....WHEEEE~~~~.......A BRAND NEW PROTON SAGA....yes yes yes.....i can throw away my old kancil d....hehe...my SLK...haha....not throw la..but sell it.....hmm.....but..unfortunately...i have to wait for about 6 months....now i tink stil left about 2 more moths 2 go gua...hmm...nvm nvm.....hav 2 b patient.....wait wait wait wait....heehhehe

nex is....WTF....i need money....more money....haiz....not enuf money for me to use....as i din work part time anymore.......it makes my economic fall into a ditch.....lol....now jz get money from parents only....and dis sem....i cant work as too many thing to do already....so...will c how nex sem....hope dat can find a job n start working on it.....

hmmm.....i think dis is the update la....oh ya...one more thing...now i'm in college....n supposingly i got class at 9am...but....when i reach here...WTF WTF WTF WTH......they told me no class....lecturer din come....#%&*###+!!!~~~@#........... waste my petrol,my sleeping time,my energy,my dream,and many more.....argghhhhh.......feeling sleepy now...but stil cant go home yet cuz hav thing to do later....haiz.........c ya nex time....adiosss!!!!!

RAN-D-OM

2007-10-26T07:33:00.000-07:00

Did blog for a long time...hehe...here are sumthing happen recently

1.Having my a-lvl exam again,so...working on it..stil hav 3 more papers 2 go...jia you jia you

2.Wana buy a new com....so...searching for a com and asking around for the information about the com...

3.Due to different opinion,ague wif dad about buying the com..lol....

4.Din work for a bout 1 month...bcuzzzzz....PREPARE FOR MY EXAM...!!!!

5.no working=no money...less money 2 spend.....haiz...

6.everyday also a boring days...hehe....

well..all i can write about is like dat la....will update later..hehe...chaozzz...zzzzzzzzzzzzz

cooking lesson

2007-10-18T07:55:00.000-07:00

Yesterday....she came into a mood of cooking...so..she cook spaghetti n mash patato for me as my lunch...as it is 2 much n i ate a lot...so it also became my dinner..lol...my parents ate it too...n they said it is nice...so..now here are some pic to teach you how to cook a delicious spaghetti..^^

Introducing our chef today,Mrs Toh Yen Lynn...(applause applause)......

OK...after introducing our beautifull chef...here start our cook today..well...the cooking utensils that we need today is non-stick pan,few plates and bowl....while the ingredient..hehe...it is secret...as it is our secret reciepe..firstly,fried the onion

add in some tomato...then..fried

then,put in some meat...

and some mushroom

after that,put in the sauce of spaghetti

put in some water

close it n heat it for a while

after that,put in our secret reciepe...hehe

ster it,then u wil get the effect like in the pic

our spaghetti..yum yum.. : P

Hehe...this how we have our meal in 1 day...u can try it ur self..but..bfor that..u have to figure wat she put in for the sauce...hehe..enjoy trying......

9/8/07

2007-09-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

well..it was las month...din post it...it was my fren zun jie bday....n he asked us went to a hotel n gather...n there...we hav lots of fun....haha....n..he kena cake in his.....ass...muahaha....it was Roy idea....n...Kuan Chien...did all of the stuff...he put his hand wif cake into Jie undie...lol...i cant imagine how was his hand smells like...haha...well...i'll jz upload the video...n jz take a look of it...oh ya..we did played sum game 2....which is mambo....whoever cant get thru...will get punishment...n....here r the video n pic......

pic n video on my birthday..^^''

2007-09-01T20:37:00.000-07:00

erm..althought it's a lil bit long..but..hehe..stil i wana update it..hehe...here is the pic n video...

erm....me on the chair....^^''

lol...was thinking of wat 2 said

hehe...cheese....

Finally,i would like 2 thx my di~..who b wif me n gave me a wonderdul birthday..thx di~..here her pic...hehe

lovely one...

However....if u mess wif her...she make u suffer.......

jz like dis.....

XD.......

c ya around......adios...

birthday...^^

2007-08-27T20:36:00.000-07:00

my cake....^^

my presie bfor

my presie...after...^^

back view...muahahah

BACK!!!!

2007-08-25T23:24:00.000-07:00

hmm.....looking at the previous post...it is about 1 month ++ i did not update my blog...the reason for dis is bcuz dat i'm bz wif my work....we will talk about it later...n my connection was totally sucks..i can on9 properly....haiz....

ok..now start wif my stories....lol...about 2 months ago...hehe...i changed my hp....n i can get rid of the old hp which is motorola C650...now...i had changed it 2 Motorola V3XX..which is a new model...n guess wat...i jz bought it for only RM350 only...muahaha.....n the real price is about RM1300...hehe...i saved for about 1K...muahaha...welll...picture of it will b upload as soon as possible la...hehe...

ok...next i wana talk about is....oh ya...is my work...hmm...i've finally found a job...n it is the same as las year..which is working as a teacher in KUMON....but...dis time different place..i worked in BATU LANCHANG....erm...the salary not bad lo...i can earn about RM700 in a month n by jz wokring as a part time teacher...hehe...well...it is not same as las time...i'm facing new environment n different working method.....as every KUMON centre hav their own ruling method...so...everything is new 2 me except for the marking part....almost work for 1 month d....muahahah......n i'm goin 2 take my salary soon...yipee....*wink*

hmm...nex...errr...let me think...hmm...ya...is my birhtday...erm...quite a normal birhtday lo...but....hav a big surprise...during my birhtday eve...erm...i went out wif my fren...2 hav sum supper...1st..we went to "mat du yao" for sum "tong sui"in contonese but in english...it means sweet water...lol...den..hav sum chat..after that...went to Gurney Tower Coffee Bean...hav second round of drink n chat again....den..next...we went to upper penang road...hmm..park 2 a normal parking place...n it cost me RM5....such an expensive parking lot...lol...den...i called my gf..which is Yen Lynn....to tell her dat i reach there d as dat day was her college prom nite....after her prom nite...she went to GLO for clubbing....hmmm...den after dat i hav 2 fetch her home...when she came out....hmm...for me..she look sexy n hot...wooo...since when my gf bcome so hot??hahha...actually she's already hot n sexy....hehe....we went to Segafredo for sum drink again...well..i din drink...as dat time i already feel sleepy....haha..so i stay there wif my fren for about half n hour..den....i fetched her back.....

hmm..when reached home..she went to changed cloth..den after dat..we went to the garden in her apartment.....den..there....she gave me her present...n she also bought a cake for me...although the cake is a small 1...but..i do really appreciate it n feeling so touch...n den......she sang birthday song for me...n finally..she finished the cake...haha...cuz she was hungry dat time....hmm..about the present...she bought me a shirt...which is very nice..n i hav tried it bfor she bought it..n i duno dat she will bought it for me...n i nv expect i can get any present for my birhtday also...n at last....a lil tears drop down from my face...lol....its a tears of touching...haha...

the nex day...due to work...i cant celebrate my birthday in the afternoon....but..i do celebrate it at nite...me,my gf n my family went to TGI Friday to hav dinner...welll..the food there...not bad...n it's big...i cant finish it...suddenly my sis told me that they bought a cake for me n the waiter there already took it n keep it....dat time i was like..."OH MY GOSH"....as they wil celebrate wif u by asking u 2 do sumthing which is very attentionable to others...lol.....finally....i have to face the celebration..but...it is nice...haha.....wel...i do hav video for it...i'll upload it soon...hehe.....

well..dis year birthday was jz nice n memorable....haha....my love one wif me....my parent wif me....n i'm jz so happy....heheh...

HOWEVER...there are sumthing sad.....also....wel..i had took my a-lvl result...the conclusion is...i hav to resit for the next exam which will b held on november....i passed my law...fail my econ n a subsidiary for my maths...so i resit for maths.....well..spent lot of money for this....n kena lots of K from my father....haiz...but i promise 2 do well nex time..n i canot fail anymore...if not...degree also cant take ler......

hehe..until here...c u guys who read my blog soon...i noe there r jz few of them...but thx for viewing my boring blog...haha...will try 2 fix the connection soon.....c ya..take care there every1...adios......

KARMA

2007-07-16T01:33:00.001-07:00

Hey Girl
Is he everything you wanted in a man?
You know I gave you the world
You had me in the palm of your hand
So why your love went away
I just can't seem to understand
Thought it was me and you, baby (baby)
Me and you until the end
But I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it (uh)
Don't wanna talk about it (uh)
I'm just so sick about it
I can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it (uh)
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fate

Is the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Shoulda known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around
Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
Yeah

Now Girl
I remember everything that you claimed
You said that you were moving on now (on now)
Maybe I should do the same (maybe I should do the same)
The funny thing about that is
I was ready to give you my name
Thought it was me and you baby (baby)
And now, it's all just a shame
That I guess I was wrong

Don't wanna think about it (no)
Don't wanna talk about it (hm)
I'm just so sick about it
I can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it (uh)
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Can you tell me is this fate

Is the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Shoulda known better when you came around
That you were gonna make me cry
Now it's breaking my heart to watch you run around
Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
Yeah

What goes around comes around
Yeahhh
What goes around comes around
You should know that
What goes around comes around
Yeahhh
What goes around comes around
You should know that

Don't wanna think about it (no)
Don't wanna talk about it (hm)
I'm just so sick about it
I can't believe it's ending this way
Just so confused about it (uh)
Feeling the blues about it (yeah)
I just can't do without ya
Tell me is this fate

Is the way it's really going down?
Is this how we say goodbye?
Shoulda known better when you came around (shoulda known better)
That you were gonna make me cry
It's breaking my heart to watch you run around (now it's breaking my heart)
Cause I know that you're living a lie
But that's ok, baby, cause in time you will find

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
(What goes around comes around, baby)
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
(What goes around comes around, baby)
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around
Yeah

Yup
Yup
Yup (let me paint this picture for ya, baby)
Yup

You spend your nights alone
And he never comes home
And everytime you call him, all you get is a busy tone
I heard you found out
That he's doing to you
What you did to me
Ain't that the way it goes
When you cheated, girl
My heart bleeded, girl
So it go without saying that should let the feeling hurt
Just a classic case scenario
Tell is always time
Girl, you got what you deserved
And now you want somebody
To cure the lonely nights
You wish you had somebody
That could come and make it right
But girl, I ain't somebody
I'm out of sympathy
See..

What goes around comes back around
I thought I told ya
Hey (hey)
What goes around comes back around
I thought I told ya
Hey (hey)
What goes around comes back around
I thought I told ya
Hey (hey)
What goes around comes back around
I thought I told ya
Hey (hey)

Take it to em, J

Hey, hey, hey, hey (repeatedly till the end)

Haha
See
You shoulda listened to me, baby
Take it to em, J
Because
What goes around comes back around
Hahahaha
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh
Ooh
Ooh-ooh-ooh-ooh

ps:\well..i do believe in karma...n the song..let feel dat...it really explaing the karma....lol....

today...

2007-07-09T08:45:00.000-07:00

today,woke up at about 2.30 in the afternoon..XD...hehe...it's quite late i noe..haha...but...ppl was so tired mer...so ma sleep late a bit lo....haha....den...hav my lunch+breakfast...ya..."breakfast"..hehe...after dat watch tv n read newspaper.....jz like usual...

after everything settle....i start flipping newspaper..n start searching for job....hmm...did make a several calls...n sucess in only 2 calls...which is 1 to a tuition centre and another is a restaurant name "Jade Blossom"...the restaurant call me 2 go for an interview...err...i mean the restaurant supervisor or manager or any1 la...and...i did went...bt...din go for an interview...as i c the place around..it is hard for me 2 find a parking place while i working in day time...so..i decide not to go there...hehe..so..i chaozzz....went to find my gf...den..bring her home....to take chocalate...which i forgot 2 bring for her....

when reach home...my mum told me dat my babysitter husband...which is my god mother husband...whcih means dat is my god father....passed away last month...it's been 1 month already n now only i noe...when heard of it...i was so shock...n...sure...i'm sad...aiks...life is jz so short.....i remember the last time i saw him was dis year chinese new year....n i did told him dat i'm goin 2 visit him when i'm free....n...i did not do it as i'm having my final exam...n now...he is gone...n i'll nv c him again....sad sad sad.......n i hope dat my god mother will b ok...as now only left her alone....although stil hav her child wif her...bt...sure she wil feel lonely as the one which spend half of the life time wif her had already been 2 another world....it is jz so sad..haiz...i hope she is ok....goin 2 visit her soon...

2day was jz a sad day for me....n isn't life so short....??so...appreciate ur life when u stil can....we only hav limited time 2 live in dis world...so..appreciate every moment n do sumthing which u wan to do....dun waste it jz like dat...time wil not wait for us....spend it wisely....

god dad.....rest in peace...amitaba...

alone...

2007-07-03T12:28:00.000-07:00

02-07-2007,parent n aunty went to pulau lankawi...n left me at home...jz me...alone...at 1st..i thought it would b nice 2 stay at home alone without any1..but after dat...i felt it was not really nice..haha...

usually,mum is the 1 who handle all those cleaning thing at home..but now..i hav 2 take over it...oh gosh...for the 1st time i did so many house work..ahem ahem....many u noe...i'm so hardworking...lol...well..i wash cloth,boil water,take care of the house...aiks...the horrible thing is...i hav 2 settle my meal by my self...aiks...boring la....haha...so...for lunch...i jz cook maggie mee n eat...for 2 days d....lol..cuz lazy of goin out 2 buy...hehe...den...dun dare 2 change 2 many cloth...cuz...change d..i have to wash it...if not..i wil b naked...haha..especially underwear....lol...bfor mum goin there...i told her...if my underwear finish wearing....i'll go buy a new 1...haha....but..i din la...n dat not mean dat i keep on wear the same undie la...stil got change la..i'm not dat dirty k...heheh...

den...everyday stay at home alone..nth 2 do....1st nite...went out wif my fren 2 hav supper.....den 2nd nite..went out wif fren n play dota...n the happiest thing is dat...2ml..they r coming back...n i dun hav 2 do so much thing d...haha...lazy me...lol...but..it was a good experiance though...n i'm kinda enjoy it..lol...

currently..stil looking for job...n i'm starting 2 get bored of my life...everyday doin nth...dat makes me feeling so bad...without extra money...cant do anything ler....aiks...wana buy thing for gf also hard...aiks..hope she understand la....i'll work hard de.....jz hope dat she dun think other way....

anyway..it is 3.40am now..until here...nite n morning..goin 2 sleep d..tata....

代替品

2007-06-28T05:34:00.000-07:00

车里的spair tyre,游泳时用的水浮,又或者足球里的substitute
这些全都是一个代替品
当人类无法找到他们真正所需要的东西时
他们都会利用这些代替品来暂代他们
打个比喻
当汽车爆胎时,我们总会使用spair tyre来让车子继续行走
过后,总会去换过新的tyre,而所谓的spair tyre就会放回原来的位子
for水浮呢
它就是当我们不会游泳时,拿来帮助我们在水面上浮着的
当我们学会了游泳
我们就会把水浮丢在一旁了

这些事情,我们往往都会在生活里遇到这种事情
而大多数的事都是在感情事方面
而且都会在分开后才知道自己成了对方的代替品
当两方在一起时,其中以方都会付出比较多的
付出比较多的一方,往往都是代替品
他就像spair tyre一样
令另一方利用来帮助她行走,帮助他过生活
他也想水浮一样
让她利用来帮助她在将要沉入水时,浮起来
他也想足球里的substitute
当球会找到一个更优秀的足球员时
他就会成为一位做在板凳上的substitute
从此就很难栽倒球场里踢球

当别人的代替品的感受不是很好受
当你被抛弃时,那感觉就更加不好受
那感觉就好像是被家人抛弃一样
在也不被接受
真的很痛苦,很难过
当时的心,就像被斯成碎片一样

可是,这是人生毕经的阶段
在感受到之后,就把它当做是个教训
在也不要犯同样的错误
因为,第一次反错,是值得原谅
而第二次犯错就是一位笨蛋
第三次呢,就不值得原谅
所以呢,永远都不要犯第二次的错误

我永远都会记得
被当成是代替品的感受
那段日子里
我永远都不会忘记

no tittle

2007-06-25T04:40:00.000-07:00

as u noe...i'm holiday-ing.....n it is a long holiday for me...for about half year which is 6 month which is 24 weeks which is 180 days which is 4320 hours which is 259200 minutes which is 15552000 second...wow..such a long days...haiz...

i should b working or taking sum course to fullfill my boring holiday life..but then...i'm not doin anything rite now...which means dat..i pass my day wif a "wonderful" thing....which means dat...everyday..i jz eat,sleep,surf net,chatin,n eat den sleep again...wow...wat a "wonderful" life for me..n it is so boring...well..2day...i suppose to call for an interview..but then...due to i'm too sleepy n tired...i fall asleep...so...i miss it...hmm..2ml goin 2 cal again...mz start working d...if not...my wallet wil bcome very thin n skinny..not nice rite...

my fren ing hsien jz back las sat...already goin out wif him las sat....haha...well.i felt dat he bcome thiner...but my mum said dat he did not change at all...haha....well...dat depands on how we feel...n hor n hor...he ar...wahhh....stil dat entao lo..LOLZZZ......

every1 of my fren already start working....so...we go out not dat often anymore...n...dats another reason dat made me bored...haha....nvm la....i also wil b working soon..so it is ok la...every1 also bz their thing....haiz

well..back to my gf...erm...she is having exam now..hmm....until dis friday...haiz...wil hav 2 wait until dat day so dat can go out pak tor wif her...hehe....but now...jz let her concerntrate on her exam la...she wil do well de...hehe....support her always...hehe....

hmm..i think nth 2 write anymore la...until here...tata......update nex time...

hachiewwwwww.....

2007-06-18T05:41:00.000-07:00

OMG....i'm sick now..ish...hate dis feelings....i get flu 2 days ago.....

aiks...from day til nite...u can c me cough non stop...n...it is irritating....

2day...yesterday nite..i get sorethroat...n..i cant sleep well..aiks..sorethroat really a big suffer..so pain ler...like get scratch in my throat.....ARGHHHHHHH

pain pain pain....hope i get well...very very soon.....T_T

free+lazy+playful+enjoying=holiday

2007-06-11T08:06:00.000-07:00

Well...i jz finish my exam...erm..not really finish la cuz stil left las paper on dis friday...ish...it's the las day of the exam...n i hav 2 wait until the las day 2 end my exam...ish ish...however...i'm now already in holiday mood d..hehe..but yet..i stil hav 2 study ..but...wait la...wait the time get nearer 1st..hehe

gona enjoy every second during my holiday..hehe...but then..i hav 2 get enuf sleep 1st...everyday jz sleep n eat after eat..den sleep..after sleep...den eat...muahahaha....lazy mood acitvated...gona spend my time properly..as i hav about half year holiday..=.=''...gona bored til death..ish ish...

hmm...recently..got a few things happen la...all also related 2 relationship de...ish...hope it wont happen on me...scare scare...well well...one of my college fren..hmm..in love d..but then..i not sure he on d or not..as he dun wana tel me...so..i jz wish him good luck...n hope he on fas fas la...haha...gona perli him til death...las time keep on perli me...now he gona get it back..muahahahah...GG...

another 1 is my close fren..hav a relationship problem 2...aiks...part of the fact is cause by me...ish.. i should not b so big mouth...hmm..gona discuss wif him when he back...hope everything is ok...n...hope nothing bad wil b happen la...gona think sum idea 2 help him...well..all the best 2 him 2....

nex is one of my gal's fren..well..she jz broke up not long ago...erm...cause my third party...haiz...so soli 2 heard about it...wel..she is ok now...but stil can c the hurt in her....well..cheer up gal....u r a good gal...many guys out there for u...u will find a beter one...stil young..go look around..n u wil find that..the world is too big...n u stil not yet finish having fun ....hehe...take care ya...all the best 2 u 2...

hmm...i do hope dis 3 person wil hav a best day in their life...pray for them...hope them getting beter n beter..greater n greater...hehe...well...for me..i'm stil the same...beside exam..nothing happen la...jz..normal day...hehe....erm..i think sum special days is coming..so..we'll c..hehe...

i think i'm goin 2 clean up my books d...as...no more use putting there...waste space nia...hehe..jz need 2 keep sum only...the rest...stil thinking wana put it where...cuz i dun wana throw it away..wana keep it as a memory..hehe...after exam..the chances of seeing my college frens will b lesser..althought i nt really like the college..but...there r stil sum ppl who i would like 2 keep contact...hehe...the past shall b forget...forgive is the most important n most difficult thing for a human been 2 do...well...i would like 2 say soli 2 sum of u which i feel dat i did sumthing wrong n how i treat u guys...hope u guys forgive me..n hope dat we can stil remain as a fren....

hmm...nt much 2 continue d...2ml again...another free n relaxing day for me...will continue rest n eat....so dat...i can bcome fatter...hehehe...been gaining weight this days...muahaha...2 thin d la..haha...ok...til here...good bye...adios.....

examzzzz(part 2)

2007-06-03T11:28:00.000-07:00

hmm...again..is my exam...stil nt yet finish...n i'm stil struggle wif it..exam was a disaster...lol...everyday keep on study n study...make my life miserable...n now...i'm here 2 blog so dat i can relax a while....already study for the whole day d...wahh..goin 2 die if i study like dat for everyday...XD

well...dis week is goin 2 b a very tough week....goin 2 hav exam on tuesday until friday....n..every paper on dis week...is damn hard...n it is all important paper...wtf...all on dis week...cant relax at all...wil b very stress....stress than las week...haiz...sigh sigh sigh....due 2 dis...my pimples pop out like hell..ish ish...so hard 2 control it...but now...bcuz of exam..it come out again...ish...I HATE EXAMMM!!!!!(jz express my feelings nia la....cannot meh)

nvm...after been through dis week...i'm goin 2 release my self...goin b wild like a beast...MUAHAHAHAHA...GG....but..stil i hav 2 rest...hehe....nt enuf sleep lately....n...i dun hope i get sick...as...my holiday is coming d...i dun wan 2 get sick while it is holiday..so...mz also take care take care..abo...habislah cuti saya....

oh ya..remind me of dis...yesterday..haha...watch the whole episod of star wars....woo...was like..sitting in front of the tv wif my economics notes from afternoon...til midnite...woo...n now only i understand who is who in starwars...hehe...las time was so confused about the character n the story line in it..hehe...n i found dat....starwars 1 2 3 was so in compare to starwars 4 5 6...XD...bcuz it was about years ago when it was flimed...hehe...

well..i think i stop here...goin 2 sleep...n 2ml wil b studying again...n again...study for the whole day...as my war is coming on tuesday...sien....bye....

examzz

2007-05-26T09:33:00.000-07:00

hmm...exam started few days ago...n now..i'm waiting for another paper...which wil fall on 30th of may...hmm...here is my feeling during dis exam period...i'm feeling a bit nervous...a bit stress..a bit lazy...a bit playfull...n a bit hardworking(when i think of how bad i m if i din study well)...hehe...really hate exam......well...hav 2 bear wif it...n hav 2 work hard...cuz...dis is my future....

ok lah...stop here...lazy 2 update....wait until nex week ba..tata....

2007-05-08T22:33:00.000-07:00

新的恋情,新的开始
有时真的要习惯一下
因为每一段恋情,都有它的不同
渐渐的,也慢慢的习惯了这一段
有时也会和以前那一段来作比较
比较起来,觉得说,这次我所做的东西
都得到了appreciation
而以前所做过不应该做过的事
我都没重犯错
我曾经知道自己做过错事
都希望得到一个机会来弥补过错
可是,却得不到...
直到她的出现,我也得到这个机会
我不是把她当做是我以前那个
而是不想把曾经不应该管得太严的态度
也用在这一次的感情上
我看开了很多,
凡是都不会要求太高
凡是顺其自然就好
想法也跟着成长了
有一句话说
爱情让人在一夜之间长大
现在,我懂了
这句话,是对的
如果没有经过那一次
也许我没有可能有今天这个post吧!

祝福我吧!!

IC please...

2007-05-04T23:19:00.000-07:00

Hmm...quite lazy 2 update my blog..but now..i do hav the mood 2 update it...hehe...well...2day is 5th of may 2007...n my final exam stil left 17 days 2 go..n yet..i'm stil not yet start my revision..haiz..chamzz..die die die....i dun wan 2 fail my final..if not..my future HABISLAH......TOLONGLAH SAYA...nah...goin 2 start it d...

OK now...2 relate dis blog 2 the tittle i put...hmm...i got a story 2 tel...it happens jz yesterday nite...well...as usual..every friday..i'll b goin out wif my fren n my gf 2...but..yesterday...jz me n my gf...we went 2 eat LOK LOK...hmm..YUM YUM....she ate about 13 stick of "ham"..walao...so scary...hmm..total..cost us about RM13.40,incuding mine also lah..not only her "ham" lah....erm...quite reasonable lo...n there r many choice there...hmm...n it is fresh...gona go eat again nex time..hehe..I LIKE LOK LOK...MUAHAHAHAHA....*evil grin*..I'm gona finish all ur fishball n everything...if i can...hehe.. :-p

After finish it...went to her home...n chat in the car....after a few chat...hoho...saw 2 guys wearing yellow yellow shirt drive thorugh..n they r looking at us...they r the so call ANTI RASUAH police...here r the conversation btw us n the police..

police:buat apa?
me:sembang lah ni..
lynn:saya tinggal di sini saja
police:tinggal mana?
me:itu berjaya court lo
police:bagi IC
*giv the ic*
*police use torchlight n c weather we r the person in the ic*
police:kamu kerja apa?
me:saya??masih belajar
police:belajar mana?
me:apa?
police:belajar mana?
me:apa?
*switch off the radio*
me:ya,apa??
police:belajar di mana?
me:IPG
police:tinggal dgn siapa?
lynn:bapa mak
police:kamu keluar bapa tau?
lynn:tau
police:i mau telefon bagi bapa kau
lynn:boleh..pi telefon lah..
*police diam diam*
police:kamu tinggal di mana?
me:bayan lepas,bukit jambul sana..
police:pasal apa tadi gelak begitu kuat?
me:apa?aiya..tadi bergurau saja...
police:bergurau?
me:ya...bergurau lalu gelak lah ni..
*return the ic to us*
police:ok..balik sekarang
me:okok...

wtf...chating in the car also kena check..stupid police...do u noe that we malaysians also got the right...we din do anything also u mari n check...haiz....scare wat...most ppl who do thing in the car is like u police which means is MALAY lo...me r chinese lah k...we can hand in hand,hug even kiss also..not like u malay..everything also cant..dats y lah...malaysia so many raping case..bcuz of u all malay lah...tak tahan..tiada keimamnan...haiz...kesian betui...

sleepy....=.=

2007-04-27T16:27:00.000-07:00

Its 7.23 in the morning...n i'm awake while others r stil in their dreamland...hehe...well...i'm sleepy now...but..i mz not sleep...if i sleep now..den...later i wil not get to wake up in time at 8am.....haiz...so...dats y i'm here 2 update my blog so dat time will pass easily....

I woke up at 5am jz now 2 fetch my sister n her bf 2 airport....they r goin 2 KOREA for holiday...T.T...i also wana go...KOREA is one of my favourite country..haiz...i wonder when only i can go.....so jealous ler....hehe..but i did ask them 2 buy some souvinier for me....hehe....*winks*...

Welll..hmm....lets try some random post...here we come..

1.Recently,was thinking how to organise n stabelise my financial status...was spending so much in dis month...n nex month...hope i can manage my financial status properly...mz not spend 2 much..mz save $$..

2.My FINAL is coming on 22nd of may....n..i'm stil goyang kaki everyday...not even touch my book also..cham...how...no mood 2 study la...mz study liao...if not...gona die...haiz....

3.Aunty from Australia is coming back nex month...haiz...feel so pressure facing her...y everytime i exam..she also come back de leh...come back in wrong timing la...ish ish....

hmm....i think i stop here la...VERY SLEEPY....but..canot sleep...T.T....ish...stil got another half n hour 2 go...kanasai lo....how m i goin 2 pass dis half n hour??doink doink doink....

a nite to remember~~

2007-04-19T07:38:00.000-07:00

18/4/2007...a nite to remember...went to crown jewel wif her...at 1st...i was 2 afraid of confessing 2 her...wel..i jz kept quiet...n continue chit chat...den..after a while...the guts suddenly appear...so...i decided 2 ask...but then...my hp rang..OMG..is hong yew..haiz..kacao nia...but nvm...he told me 2 ask...den...guts bcome more n more...so..finally..i manage 2 say it out...lol..at 1st..she shake her head...den..i thought...erm...no hope d la..den jz keep smiling..duno wat 2 do..but...she did ask me..u wan me giv u wat answer...i jz said..yes or no..she answer me dat she din said no..den i said...u din answer...means u accept d??she knock her head...wow...dat time i was like...goin crazy..woo...i cant bliff...i ask her 2 cubit me...slap me..even poke me..lol...

well..that nite...i kept on smiling...when i driving..i smile...reach home d..stil smile..lol..i think i'm happy about it..haha...i thought i was dreaming...well...realisticly...it is not..haha...i shall remember dis day...dis date...n dis nite...thx to u...thx for giving me a chance...thx for everything...i wil do my best...i learn from my mistakes..n i shal nv do it again...muacksss....

2day...hehe...1st date after being couple..haha...went to gurney plaza n watch movie after my class...erm...watch wild hog..erm..a funny movie..not bad la...hehe...well..2day..most of my frens n her frens noe about us..haha...well...sum congrats n sum suan me lo..hehe..well..nvm...use 2 it la..haha...after movie..went to mcd...den eat n chat...den..went back 2 disted n find frens...during waiting for fren in the car...we took sum pic...n now..she did edit it..hehe...

well..here r the picsss.......whee~~~

well..dis is the only old pic....for us...n..i quite like dis pic lo...

erm...nex time took more pic har dear..hehe...i think is time 2 stop here la...lastly...would lk 2 thx all of u who giv me support...n giv me guts...so do ur congrats...thx...i made it...hehe......

1st present....^^

2007-04-17T06:29:00.000-07:00

Suprisingly..2day i recieve a present from her...i was so excited n happy...i really did not expect that she wil brought me sovenier from her pangkor trip...开心睡不着了.....^^...well..here r sum of the pics for the present...hehe..

my present wif wraping...hmm..nice wraping..^^

wheeee~~~~

a keychain wif Pangkor word on it...

another shot...infront of com...^.^''

I Love it a lot..thx...i noe u did the wraping n the note til so late..i appreciate it..thx a lot...giv u a kiss..muackss..hehe..

Well...since i already write dis blog...hehe...den...no point for hiding my feelings n thinking la...hehe..u r great n nice gal...thx...n i wana let u noe dat...i'm may not a best guy for u..but...i'm trying 2 b the best...n...i'm stil waiting u..n ur answer...hehe...

a present for u

2007-04-12T09:52:00.000-07:00

My life i not but an empty bottle…
containing all my feeling and emotion …
of love, sorrow, and happiness …
of fear, anger and desire…
an empty bottle in the middle of the sand …
and time, like the wind blows by…
fades everything away…
washes everything away…
taking almost everything…
but for one single feeling of love…
a love which will never be blown away…
a love which will never fade with time

lolipop...

2007-04-12T07:02:00.000-07:00

在不久的以前,也就是今年的二月开始

有一天,心血来潮,买了一支 lolipop来吃
吃了之后,觉得...甜甜的..感觉好像..开心的感觉
就这样..我就addicted to lolipop
差不多每天都会看到我嘴里有这一根东西
有人批评我这样老了还吃lolipop,
可是,就是因为一句,我就喜欢..hehe

我之所以会addicted to lolipop,
是因为我从中找到了开心的感觉
感觉好像回到童年似的
不必想这样多,没有烦恼..感觉真自在

就这样,一天至少5-6支lolipop
持续了大概一个月左右
因为吃太多的关系,牙齿坏掉了
没有办法之下,唯有停止吃lolipop

就这样,吃lolipop的日子就没了
从此,就跟lolipop说bye bye
不过,我还是会想念那吃着lolipop的日子
永远都不会忘记.

如果有机会的话,我们在相见吧lolipop
后会有期....谢谢你在我不开心的时候
给过我开心的日子!!

my weakness....

2007-04-10T09:58:00.000-07:00

Everyone do have their weakness...so do i...it's been a long time for me 2 think about dis...n..i have found my own weakness...and..i think it is quite correct..

well..my weakness...i think..i think to much...sumtimes...a simple thing...i will think of it for a few days...n sumtimes...i'll makes it bcome complicated...i noe dat..think 2 much wil makes ur self unhappy...but...i jz cant control it..although i noe the theory..but..sumtimes i feel dat...if i dun think of it..den.i'm avoiding it...duno la..jz..it already bcome part of my life...but..i should control it...as...no matter wat..i also wil keep thinking..and at last..i make my self unhappy...n worry...

2nd is dat..i care to much..i care everything which is related 2 me..or may b i'm self-centered person...i care wat ppl think of me...i care wat they talk about me...i care wat is happening out there..i care...everything...although it's not about me...but..i do care...or should i say..sumtimes...others problem wil bcome my problems too...

sumtimes i feel dat...y i so "kay po" go n care 2 much...i din get anything also if i care of it...m i helpfull or m i stupid??i duno...care 2 much makes me tired..makes me moody...makes me sleepy...or..izit i'm jz being my self??i duno...hmm...should not care 2 much la...cuz..it is non of my business...but can i??hmm...mz try...

another weakness is dat...i'm not "gan" enough.....always let other take advantage on me...do things wil give some chances 2 opponent..and at last...end up hurting my self...wat to do wor..."gan"..not every1 can do de la...jz those who is cold blood de..can do only...so "gan" for wat leh???y mz u fight me i fight u wor...cant jz b peace meh...y mz fight for the power 2 control wor...u get it...wat can u do??jz student only nia la...in college...u dun need power la...jz study...

sumtimes jz dun understand my self...anyway...will try 2 hapuskan my weakness la..try try try...i'm may not b the best..but i'm trying 2 b the best......but..dun try 2 hard...hehe...

my love type

2007-04-10T08:34:00.001-07:00

Your Love Type: ENFJ

The Giver

In love, you give your all and feel guilty when relationships fail.
For you, sex is not seperate from love and caring.

Overall, you are humorous, giving, and motivational.
However, you tend to be over-protective and critical of your partner.

Best matches: INFP or ISFP

What's Your Love Type?

2007-04-07T22:43:00.000-07:00

Your Brain is 60% Female, 40% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

I'm here again...

2007-04-06T01:54:00.000-07:00

Hmmm...it's been a week plus i din update my blog lo...now i'm here 2 update lor..hehe...well well well...not much interesting happen la...i'll list it randomly lor..hehe...

1.Took my result...wow...pass wif a extremely good marks...haha...dat was in my dream la...i had failed my econ paper,so do my math papers...hmm....sad...not really la..as i already noe dat i wil failed it...so..take it as a lesson lo.

2.Happily 2 noe dat...i'm now really ready for another relationship la...hehe...n i hope...it wil come soon...i hope i may the best for her gua...hehe...well..more 2 go...hav 2 work hard 2 win her heart more kok..hehe..

3.Found dat...my thinking have been change...attitude hav been change...hmm...a good thing for me..though stil need 2 go for more...but...dis is main...n i have done it...the small small de...slowly la...2 build an empire..also take time rite.??

4.Recently found out a theory..."i may not b the best,but i'm trying 2 b the best"..hmm...quite usefull..every1 r not wonderfull...jz try ur best to b a beter 1..

5.Watched jz follow law...hm...laugh the hell out of me..haha...remember the 5E...need it in our life...but...i do create my own 2...need 5E..mz also remember my 3R..which is "relax,release n reformat"...dis wil make u easily 2 attain 5E

6.Sent my car to hospital..no car use for few days..T_T...bored til die d..bt..2day or 2ml wil back d...my lil Kancil wil back d..yay...

hmm..i think dis is wat i wana update gua....update nex time la..hehe..jz wake up only...ok la..stop here...tata..hav a nice day every1...

explanation

2007-03-28T05:26:00.000-07:00

recently..i feel dat there is a misunderstood...about the previous blog i wrote n the shout out i post on frenster...hmm
well..i think u guys may think dat i'm scolding n plan 2 do sumthing on sum1...n i think u all noe who i mean...but actually the truth is dat...i'm not talking about dat...and one more..in this world..i not only noe 1 gal la...there r so many gals out there...everything i do...izit muz b related 2 her???furthermore...about indian...u r not indian n u told me dat....n in the blog..i really mean indian la k....

i noe all the thing i wrote seems like related 2 her...but actually...it is a "NO"...i not only noe IPG student k....i stil hav many frens out there...n izit i cant hav conflict wif them....

DUN u guys always think dat...i cant let it go k...things already over...y should i go think about it n do sum stupid thing on others???yes..i admit i got think of dat bfor...but...i did not do it k...now i got my own life...wat for i wana care about the stupid past??it jz make me sad...i'm now looking forward for my future la...plz la...wat i wrote...is not related 2 u guys la......

i think...dats wat i wan 2 explain la...u guys wana talk the bad about me...den...dat depands on u all d...i jz can sure dat...i did nth wrong...i din ruin any1 life n their name....

2007-03-26T05:46:00.000-07:00

最近收到风,有些人再读我的部落格
hmm....sound interesting
之前有一个post是"一个我最想做的事"
收到了很多的comment...
当中也有人来读过,不过...我不觉得他或她会明白吧
因为他是印度人,而她却不懂华语
所以说呀,读华校就是最好

I know...你们会在想我会不会做出这件事
如果是这样,那么我们就玩个游戏
猜猜我会不会呢??
赢了可没有奖品哦

故事才刚开始,陆陆续续还有更精彩的
你们慢慢等待吧,我会把它弄的色彩缤纷
and i'll make your life miserable
我太好了....
愿意把别人的生活弄的精彩些

我知道你或者你们早就有plan了
算我当时笨,没有警觉性
你做初一,我做十五
公平吧??
那就看看我的思想如何了
如果真的不想我做的话
那就当面告诉我真真的原因
你或你们都知道我最讨厌就是被人家骗

所有的种种来龙去脉
就要看我的心情如何了
我可以告诉你或你们
只要我真的动手
你或你们都没有好日子过
你说过我deserve it
那现在你们deserve it咯

敬请期待吧!!

ps:记得每天要拜拜哦,这样才能保佑你们能过个快乐无忧的生活!!

depress mode activated

2007-03-20T09:50:00.000-07:00

feeling stress now..................
damn sad........
mood down.......................
hoping sumbody can hit my head now....
hoping sumbody can kill me now...
hoping dat memory can b erase now.............
hoping dat........i'm jz a kid

HATE THIS FEELINGS!!!!!!!!!!!

一首歌

2007-03-18T08:14:00.000-07:00

当我想起你时,我就会偷偷的微笑
和你出去时,我的心情特别好
就这样我已经忘记所有的苦恼
我想如果这样不知有多好
能永远就更加好
*你的眼睛把我电倒,你的发香让我昏倒
你有一个sweet sweet的smile

我看你时脸就会红掉
你开的条件我想我做到
by the way 我必须思考*

条件一我会懂得逗你笑
条件二我会珍惜你的好
条件三我也会像小孩撒娇
条件四我没有不良的嗜好
条件五我的个性不会胆小
条件六我懂得准时把你喂饱

送你这一首歌,希望你会笑一笑
只想让你知道,我的心情有多糟
因为我在思考,如何完成这篇稿
所开的条件不知,适不适合你味道

repeat *

条件一我懂得尊师重道
条件二我懂得适度的讨好
条件三也会浪漫来增加情调
条件四虽然我长的太高
条件五我脾气不会太暴躁
我希望你会将我思考

OH MY LOVE OH MY SOUL
不要把我先kick out,我说过的我做到

自卑

2007-03-09T04:37:00.000-08:00

不知怎的,突然间觉得好自卑,
凡是都觉得自己比不上别人,
什么事都做不好
所做的东西都觉得一点也不起眼
一点也没有quality
一点也没有taste
真的好难受

去到哪里都会低头的我
没有那勇气去抬起头来
很怕别人看到自己没用的样子
很怕别人看到自己没用的样子的眼光
很怕看到光
总会戴着帽子上街
真的好怕...好怕....

有了自卑
就自然而然的
会失去自信
没有了自信的我
做什么事
都会犹豫不决
凡是都不会很坚决
到了最后
都会是一场空
什么都没有....
真的好辛苦哦

自卑有了
什么都做不成
凡是都很难搞定
问题就会越来越多
好复杂啊...

自卑的感觉真的好辛苦啊
如何才能没有自卑呢??

First love....

2007-03-02T23:15:00.000-08:00

昨天突然间想起一首歌,一首1999年创作的歌
歌名First Love,主唱是Utada Hikaru
这首歌收入在First Love这张专集里,而这张专集总销量突破10万张
惊人的数目.

当我听这首歌时,突然有许多感触,
去找了歌词,
很有意思的歌词,很像我之前的想法,
就这样,我深深的爱上这首歌,
爱上了First Love.

First Love日语歌词
Saigo ni kisu wa
Tabako no flavour ga shita
Nigakute setsunai kaori

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Anata wa doko ni irun darou
Dare wo omotterun darou

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember the love
you taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

Tachidomaru jikan ga
Ugokidasou to shiteru
Wasuretakunai koto bakari

Ashita no imagoro niwa
Watashi wa kitto naiteru
Anata wo omotterun darou

You will always be inside my heart
Itsumo anata dake no basho ga aru kara
I hope that i have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
Ima wa mada kanashii love song
Atarashii uta utaeru made

You are always gonna be my love
Itsuka dareka to mata koi ni ochitemo
I'll remember the love
You taught me how
You will always gonna be the one
Mada kanashii love song
Now and forever.

First Love 英文翻译
Our last kiss
Tasted like tobacco
a bitter and sad smell

Tomorrow at this time
where will you be?
who will you be thinking about?

You are always gonna be my love
Even if i fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember the love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad song
Until i can sing a new song

The paused time is
About to start moving
There's many thing that I don't want to forget about

Tomorrow,at this time
I will probably be crying
I will probably be thinking of you

You will always be inside my heart
You will always have your place
I hope that I have a place in your heart too
Now and forever you are still the one
It's still a sad song
Until i can sing a new song

You are always gonna be my love
even if i fall in love with someone once again
I'll remember the love
You taught me how
You are always gonna be the one
It's still a sad song
Until i can sing a new song

一件想做的事

2007-03-01T01:31:00.000-08:00

其实，有一件事我想做很久了，

可是，我知道我做了，会伤害你，

不过，没办法，我只不过想要你知道说，

我所说的一切是对的，虽说你已经不是我的另一半，

但是，我不想说以后你会受到伤害。

我这样说，也许大家都会说我不甘心，一心想要报复，

我承认我不甘心，也承认我有过报复的心，

但是，我真的想要你知道说，这世界不是你想象中那么简单。

也许我所说的有可能是错的吧，错或是没错，

我也不想看到你受到我所想象中的伤害，

只因这伤害是比任何东西还要痛，

我看过，也经历过，我不想你也遭到我所说的伤害。

现在你已经找到了你的另一半，可能你会告诉他吧，

也有可能你回收在心里，把它埋藏在心底，把它当成永远的秘密，

不过，纸还是包不住火，终有一天，他还是会知道的，

不要等到情深了再说出来，那时，如果有事发生，你会更痛。

就算你不说，我还是会告诉他，

就算说了，会失去你这个朋友，

我已经不在乎了，因为现在的情况下，

我就如没有你这个朋友般，

说或不说，也没有什么分别了，

希望是我做了之后，他还是对你没有改变，

那么的疼你，爱你，愿意永远保护你，

如果他真的伤害你，我不会原谅他

就如你所说的，只要一个人是真心的爱你，

不管你是怎样，他还是会接受你的。

只不过是在等这适当的时间罢了，

最后一件为你而做的事，也是有可能会伤害你的事，

原谅我。。对不起。。

最后一次让我说，

我爱你，老婆！！！

teluk pahang adventure....

2007-02-26T04:47:00.000-08:00

On 27/02/07...after our supper at Subaidah,7 of us...me,Ting wei,Yean Zheng,Poke,Ah Beh,Jin Khun,Yee En decided to went up 2 Teluk Pahang Dam...well..Poke sponsor his car n Yean Zheng drive his car...wow..n the best is..7 of us get into a WAJA...coooollllll.....n kia kia(scare)...we went up there at about 1 sumthing....in the morning..hehe...

Ting Wei sleeping ler......no la...he cant tahan the flash

Pokes face so big....n the another half was Yee En

Jin Khun and Ah Beh..well...dats Ting Wei nice middle finger

We reach there at about 1.50++ gua..not sure about dat...nothing much there..but the street light..quite nice..when we reach there...there are a gang there...i think they are racer lo...sitting there n chit chating...n the entry was close...well..hehe...we climb thru the door n get in there....muahaha....

me n cow( Yean Zheng)

friends..erm..nice pose Jin Khun..and actually poke
was beside me..i hink he is too fat..so cant fit in XD

wat we pointing at??swt...

Before...

After...

Walking in the middle of the road

After dat....jz went back...but.on the way...there was police .....wow..luckily din get caught...if not..chamzzzz...lol...well..reach home at 3 sumthing..was so tired....erm..quite a fun day gua....n also a sad day for me...hehe...

sumthing which is really hard 2 explain...

2007-02-24T11:20:00.000-08:00

Today..went to queensbay mall...at 1st...my mood was good...until the moment i saw her...it turn me down...

At 1st..i thought i would b ok...but..after a few moment...i feel sumthing wrong wif my heart...it's like...sum1 scratching on it...

After dat...tears coming out from my eyes...i tahan n tahan n tahan...finally..i went to toilet...i sit in the toilet...n think...n the tears falls down from my eyes...

After a few moment of thinking...i noe i was wrong as wat i had wrote on las blog...is not dat i pain until i cant feel the pain anymore..is...it is stil the same...i feel it...everytime i c her...

I stil cant let her go...i stil cant......when wil it b??

I asked them wat can i do...they told me i already got the answer in my heart...the said u already made up ur mind....jz u duno...only u wil noe how 2 do...but...in my heart...there r no answer...i really duno wat to do...

I jz ask the god...y she did dis to me??i wana noe the answer??i really wan it...but....who n how can i get it??

思念~~

2007-02-21T12:05:00.000-08:00

现在已经是早上４点,而我却坐在电脑荧幕前,心里充满着无穷的思念,更难以致信的是,已经疲惫的我,眼睛还是那么大的开着,一点倦意也没有.....真可怕呀!!!!

自从2007年的开始,我就没有一样事情做得顺利,这已彻底的将我从一座高楼推下似的,我就这样,很难的慢慢爬起来.那么多件事里,最让我心痛的是她的离去.事情开始时,我以为我和她还有机会再复合,我一直给自己希望,坚强的等下去,努力的改变自己的缺点,为的全是她的回来.可是,我错了,她离我而去,不是因为家人的反对,而是她的心早已变了.也因为这样,我从爱变恨...我恨她,我恨她骗我,我恨她不告诉我真相,我恨她从不给我机会改过,我恨她偷了我的心却不还给我....如果她老老实实告诉我她已经对我没有感情了,也许我会原谅她,可她...给了我一个理由,却在不久后跟另外一个男人交往..我真的伤透了.......这伤...却很难痊愈...很难..........我已经不懂得在去爱一个人了....因为我现在已经是一个没有心的男人了....T_T

我是那么的恨她..那为何我现在还在想着她呢??难道我说我恨她只不过是想找个理由让自己好过一点吗?我是真的恨她...还是还爱着她呢??我真的搞不清楚...现在我脑里..全是我从前和她有过的美好画面...我真的很希望她能在回到我身边...能再爱我一次...可是我知道如果真的能实现...那...一定是在我的梦里...如果真的能...我很希望这梦是永远,长久的......毕竟..现实还是现实...我还是失去了她...她在也不会回到我身边了....

在这一个月里..为她痛,为她哭,为她发疯,为她失去理智...她会在乎吗??答案是...她根本不把我所的一切放在心上...她已经把我当作是透明了....我一直都在问自己...我是个笨蛋还是长情的人呢??有人说我是笨蛋..有人说我是长情....也人说两个都是....你说呢??

现在,我已痛到麻木了...任何伤痛...我也感受不到了....只因心已变淡了...在我的世界里..希望早已变成绝望..奇迹在也不会出现了...这一个月多里...每天都在思念她...但是..她却忘了我...在她的世界里...那男人早已把我给代替了....老实说...我真的不甘心...不过还是得接收事实...有时我还是会问...我真的那么不好吗??我真的比不上那男人吗??疑问一直出现在我脑里...这也使我的信心一天比一天减少....也使我对别人的信任也跟着改变....

每天,我只能找些活动去做,做些会使我累的东西来麻醉自己...我也意识到...我身体状况一天比一天弱...但..我没有办法...我还是得继续...只因我不想再去想起她....每天我总会问自己...如果有一天她真的能回到我身边,那么那天会是在何年何月何日呢??如果有一天她真的能回到我身边,我还会接收回她吗??可能那使的我,早已有了另外一半.....也可能我还在等着她..不过..往后的日子..谁会知道呢??

所谓:"多情自古空余恨,此恨绵绵无绝期."...情让我痛,让我高兴,也让我成长....我也真的受够了...不希望什么,只希望往后的日子,我能过的开心点罢了...那..我已经心满意足了...

说着说着..也已经是早上5点多了...睡虫也爬出来了....我想我还是去找周杰伦的公公吧!!!ｈｅｈｅ．．．ｏｋｌａ..晚安给我...那早安给你们吧!!再见..........

ＴＨＥＥＮＤ．．．

Valentine's Day~~~

2007-02-15T08:31:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day over d....haha...and...i passed thru dis day wif a very happy,nice,memorable,funny mood...haha...wel..on that day...Me,Hong Yew,Kent Win and Yeow Hun went to Queensbay in the afternoon...Yeow Hun wana shopping...so we went there...and...walk here walk there...wow...and i feel that...haha...my leg was so pain...as...it's been long time i din walk for so long...and now...haha....i've feel the pain...but..it's stil ok la...cuz..can train mer...nex time go walk again...sure i wont feel the pain anymore....hehe...

After few hours of window shopping....Yeow Hun finally decide wat to buy d...HOWEVER...Me,Hong Yew and Kent win punya leg...almost patah lo..haha...n finally..we left there at about 4.30pm++...cuz..hav to rush home and change den go for football game...hehe...

WaHHhhHHhHhhhhHHh.......during the football match...i duno "up" wat form...lol..i scored 2 goals...lol...and...it's a quite good valentine's day gift for me...as i nv score a goal for such a long time d....n finally..i score d....YiPpPpEeeeeEEeeeEEeee......well...we played until about 7 sumthing...den i chaozzz....n i went to Yewzz...house n change my cloth...den..we went to Subaidah n had our dinner..wow...it was so jam....really W.T.F...waste my petrol a lot...haiz....den..after i finish my dinner...hehe...i went to VICKY house to complete my mission which Hsien gave it to me..hehe.......and....wow...she change a lot lo...dy her hair d...it's been a long time i din c her d...lol...well..jz went there for while only...den after that i went back to Subaidah....den...after finish gather all my frens...yes...we all went to Crown Jewel..hehe

WoWwWW....there r so many couple there....hehe...and...7 of us r single guys..wow....cool...(i think so XD)...we found a place n sit down...den....we start playing guitar....n we sang....hehe....well..it is quite fun...sang lots of song n we also made our own lyrics while my fren were playing guitar...hehe...SUDDENLY....2 gal came by and said..."that gal over that asked can she choose a song and then u guys play n sing...??'...wow...n that time we was like...COOL...haha...den Chee Hao...think of a song...it took about few mins...den he start playing and we start singing lo...haha...but..we havent finish it...that gang of gal said they hav to leave...n said bye bye to us...i'm the one who reply them...den after that i realise dat...."WOIIII....FORGOT TO TAKE HP NUMBER LA...>!!!!!!!!!!"...haha...but...too late d...they went far adi...HAIZ...SAD...den after that...we continue sing lo...as we continue sing...most of the couples walk away.,..i think they goin home d lo...cuz late d mer...hehe...sang n sang n play n play n laugh n laugh...mana tau...HUJAN DAH TURUN...haiz...bo ho nia...we leave the beach....

We feel that haiz...2 early la..so we decide went to the pool in CROWN JEWEL hotel..we sat there n play guitar n sing again...and suddenly think of an idea...haha.....and...we took the video down....enjoy it...XD

After that...we went to eat again...haha..on the way 2 Khaleel....lol..i race wif Yee Chern.....KANCIL vs WAJA...cool...no 1 who win or lose la...haha...den after eat....jz go home lo

Ermm....i think it was a special valentine's day for me lah...never did dis kind of thing bfor...erm..quite enjoy it...well...Single BUT...stil ROX

movie....

2007-02-13T09:28:00.000-08:00

Well...2day..for the first time i went to watch movie since unhappy thing happened...the movie i watched named "Blood Chocalate"...wel...it's a middle rank movie...not really bad but yet not really nice...haha...

For the past 1 month..i dun dare to go into cinema 2 watch movie...bcuz i scare of the feelings...i scare when i'm in the cinema...i'll think of the moment i'm wif her...the sweet moment we went to watch movie las time...the happy moment we spend in the cinema...the feelings of holding her hand...the feelings of hugging her n keep her warm...i miss that..but..i noe i hav to throw this away n move on...cuz...it is imposible 2 happen again...so...2day..i bcome brave...n i went to watched movie...at 1st...it is really ok...while u concerntrated watching movie..u wil not think of anything...but...when the movie started to get boring....OMG....my brain wont listen 2 me anymore....the picture keep coming out...n i jz cant resist it...i cant stop it...it makes me feel like....W.T.F....it's over...stop it...it's the past....Teik Houng..u stupid...dun think of it anymore...watch ur movie...haha

Erm....this situation stayed about more den 1/2 hour...dat's really sucks...it almost makes my tears fall down from my eye...i already waste lots of my tears for dis gal...n i really dun wan 2 waste any drops for her anymore(i hope so)....no more..my tears r save for others which i love more in future...for my family...not for YOU(can i??).......BLEKZZZZZ.......jz wana express my feelings...hehe...and at last....i get to concerntrated on my movie...n i finished it...

Well...it's a good start...i'll try 2 work on it...i'll try 2 do better....time makes me stroger...i'll get back all which belongs 2 me sumday.......HMP....ok...stop here...goin 2 OiNk oInK d......nite nite.....BYEZZZ.....

CHAMZZzzZZzzzzZZz........

2007-02-08T23:53:00.000-08:00

Hehe....the tittle....las nite chat wif SABBY eh si find tiok eh....haha...well...yesterday chat tiok new year cloth....she told me that she spent her money n finally she get a red colour shirt for her new year d....haha....but then...she now PK liao...thats y she said cham...and i turn cham to "CHAMZZzzZZZzzz..."..lol....

Say tiok ChAMZzzZZzzz....den really ChAmZZZZzzzzZZZzzzzZZzzzzZZzzz ar....chinese new year is jz around the corner...but...until now....i stil havent buy any new cloth for my self.....SOB SOB...T_T....and time pass so fas...n yet i'm sitting here writing blog...XD..din go buy any new cloth...haha...swt swt....another 1 week left...really ChAmZZzzzzzZZZzzZzzzz....

Another "ChAmZzzZZZZzzzzZZZzzzzzZZzz..'' is dat...14/2 is coming ler...and...i'm stil single & available....XD..haha...anyway...dis year is my 19th lonely valentine day...when wil i not b lonely again leh???hmmm...wondering ler... ~~~PRAY PRAY PRAY~~~ (GOD....I WISH DAT NEX YEAR I WILL CELEBRATE VALENTINE DAY WITH THE ONE I LOVE...OR...DIS YEAR...LET ME CELEBRATE IT HAPPILY....WITHOUT ANY SAD THING HAPPEN...~~~~^^)...hehe.....

HmmMmMmMmmm.....i think hor....ChAmZzZZZZZZzzzzZzzZZzz enuf d la..dun wan continue ChAMZZzzZZzzZZZz d...abo later wil kok ka ChAmZZzzzZZZzzzZZZzzzZZzz......hehe...

my 1st time...n the story..

2007-02-08T01:02:00.000-08:00

MUAHAHAHA....this is my 1st time posting my blog in here...wahh...so excited ler(really??)haha....well...i do hope i can express all my feelings here...

Today is 8th of February...my friend has gone for already 2days...so sad so sad...when i said gone...it does not mean he is dead...and i mean he already went to Australia for 2 days liao..so sad la...my best friend ever...Hsien ...have to further his study by going to Australia for about FOUR years...walao..so long...we only get to meet each other for about twice a year...haiz.... DOWN DOWN DOWN .....but..still..he have to go la...

Before he went to Australia...his gf plan to give him a surprise farewell party...well...i do take part in organising this party...it move quite smooth...for the 1st time i organise a BBQ so success...quite proud of my self la...hohoho...hehe...thick face d...hehe..well...not only me doing this party la...must also thanks to my friend...Hong Yew ..he also part of the organiser...he help me collect money and fetch me go buy some goods....hehe...thanks again ya...everything is under control...muahahaha(evil laugh)....

Well....after finish buying everything...the time has come...3rd of February...at about 5pm...i start my journey to Crown Jewell liao..walao..so jam la...that is because the day bfor that was Thaipussam....haiz...take me about 45 mins++ to reach there...after bring everything to the sea side....we start on the fire...well...lots of crap during start the fire...haha..but at least...get to start also la...abo...we wont get to eat anything d...haha...during eating...we are waiting for our main character reach..hehe...

About 9 like that...he reach d...he came with his eyes cover with a cloth...he cant see anything...his gf slowly bring him in...and he stand in front of us...well...he is quite surprise after see all of us are there...waste ler...did not get to see he cry...sad sad....well...we just go around and took pic la...as usual la..

such a lovely couple...^^

deeping burger into wine..haha^^''

another group of friends..."halo"

he came in just in time..==''..like GHOST

Loong,HSIEN,Me,Edmond

That day i'm quite busy lor...cause..want to give my friend Hsien and Min Min ..which is our Ah sou a surprise mer... Wahhh....... run here run there..."chuan" die me d....haha...i wana do a love shape which made of fire...at 1st...cant sucess due to the strong wind there..but at last...god also help me d....it works...haha...so happy ler...

Fire of LOVE

Well...after that...hehe...what a couple must do leh when this kind of ROMANTIC scense happen...hehe....we guys ask them to kiss each other...and..finally...di bawah paksaan kita...they... Muahahahahahaha...............

SO ENJOY LER.....^^''

After everything done....and all friends wish them....i moved to aside and sit down...i look at the sea...many picture between me and my ex-girl friend came out of my mind...suddenly i feel like crying...but...Loong..suddenly stand beside me n start singing....and it end up...i keep laughing..haha...and suddenly again...SABBY...throw sand in front of me...that really frightened me up...i thought got what thing fly in front of me....phew...it's just sand...haha...well...while waiting for our main character come back...me and my fren take the bottle and throwing 2 each other...walao...he is so strong...throw until HOLLAND there...makes me feel lazy to pick it up..haha...after a few mins...he came back already...and continue chit chating with all of our friends....

About 12 something....we get our butt up and clear up the thing...and it took us about 20 mins la...then...i saw SABBY puting of the fire on the "hui tua"...then..i asked POKE stand on the sand..which is very hot...and we close his leg wif sand...haha...few mins later..he feel hot n keep on shouting...but we ask him not to come out as we wana took pic mer...haha..

you can smell some POKE LEG MEAT smell....hehe

After finish everything...it's time to say goodbye...and by the way...that night...the moon was so bright and so round...and it look really beautifull....hmm...so enjoy...hope that there will be another fun party like this again....and...lastly...thanks for the attending and the participating of this party ya...good luck to you Hsien ..all the best in AUSTRALIA....miss you...